Yep, so enjoy =). Perhaps I'll even come back and start up with all three xangas at once!! Haha, fun! =) Oh right, and don't forget to go to fEEL_dA_kiSS and hit up the six hella sexii skittles x].

† God Bless † - `x33 JaiTi

haha i might as well jus take everything i have on here n` puh it on ther ^^ .. buh o well, i`ll keep it like that fo` now = )

so everii`1 qo n` chekk it out !! = )

i know.. that i fall a lot. that i'm the kind of person who is able to push my problems away for a while .. but then always end up crashing down again. and idk .. this past week has been scary for me cos i was seriously at an all-time low.

but .. wow. lol .. i feel so ashamed. to have lost such faith in Him and in my friends. just .. reading all the comments .. it really helped me to realize what i was doing and how stupid my decision was. i just .. since this is xanga and oh so public lol ima keep it kinda short. but yea .. just to everyone who was really there for me, concerned about me .... you guys are the best. like honestly .. words can't even express how thankful i am to have you guys.

and God .. God really is good. i mean to put up with me through all that .. haha. and yea, i still have madd issues to sort out .. but it's okay. lol i should take my own advice sometimes .. because God gives us all these hardships so that we can grow and mature in Him .. right?

hehe and how many times have i told other people that ...... = )

i`m @ this point in maii lyfE where i feel as tho having a sharp dagger stabbed into every part of me, twisted, n` pulled out would be so much easier to handle than what i`m living thru righ now. i`ve lost faith in everything .. faith in God, faith in my friends .. n` i've never had much faith in my family. this .. tell me this isnt a typical lyfE, please.

i kno that a lot of u don understand whas qoinq on .. n` it's ok, b`cos i dont even understand. i just .. i need help. like serious, mental help n` if u guYs cant be here to help me, then .. i`m scared. b`cos i even have da date down n` everything.

so if ur planning on leaving a funny comment, or even something that has an amusing TONE .. forget it. i'll kno u dont care @ all. n` i just .. i need ppo to care. please. just .. prove to me life is worth it. b`cos i desperately need maii mind to change.

please. pray. for. me.

frustratin` daii todaii .. erqq. lol i jus realized how much shitload o` money i spend on laX .. frikkin aYe, man. add it all up, i've spent//am spendinq $268 ?!! that`d bE ..

laX baq :: $48
tEam windbreaker :: $48
tEaM ho0die//shorTx :: $34.50
qrEEn wristband//dec0raTed beateRx :: $7
laX stickk :: $60
soccer cLeaTx :: $60
mouth quard :: $10
lol aiyaaa, man.

grr. je suis déprimée. ehh .. je suis triste is mo` lykk it lol.